7 Months

How is it possible that it has been seven months since my David died?  It feels like just yesterday but on the other hand it feels like I haven't seen him in forever.  I miss him so much, my heart hurts all the time because of it.  I just want to wake up from this nightmare.  I want to roll over in bed and see him laying right there beside me and realize this was all really a nightmare and then I swear I am never going to sleep again.  I am so lonely and so unhappy just very very unhappy!  Why did this happen to us?  Why after so much that we went through did he have to die at 42?  He still had a long life to live and so much more to do.  Why?  I need to know why he was taken from me?  What did I do wrong? :*(