So this weather change has caused my sinus' to flare up.  Small headache from it but nothing major, just enough to give me discomfort.  Oh and my arthritis is acting up, and it sucks having that to remind me I am getting old.  Blech!  So I was doing some writing tonight.  It's good but not always cause it gets my emotions worked up and when you already have a mild headache crying just makes it a little worse.  Oh and Lucy has decided she likes wine.  I poured myself a glass hoping it will help me fall asleep.  I look over and see the silly dog drinking out of my glass and when I pushed her away she just sat there staring at it.  And now she is watching New Moon.  Silly puppy!

I am definitely feeling better!  My appetite is back, which is both good and bad if you know what I mean. ;-) And what I eat is no longer immediately coming back out.  Yay!!  And I have finally taken down the rest of my Christmas decorations inside.  Yes yes I know, it's been almost three months since Christmas.  Hey I took my tree down right away and it isn't like I turned on the lights on my mantle or anything.  Geez!  But the decorations that had remained on my mantle and entertainment center have finally been put away.  I figured since the first day of spring had officially come it was beyond time to get this chore over with.  And yes I still have the lights hanging up outside but I will need one of my nephews to deal with that for me and again it isn't like I even have them plugged in or anything.  Well time to get ready to head to work.

So Monday night, really late, I got sick.  Nausea and diarrhea, kept me up most of the night.  So I call in sick to work.  All day Tuesday I keep dealing with this and again throughout the night Tuesday night.  So I call in sick for work on Wednesday.  By the time I went to bed Wednesday (after spending the bulk of the day in bed) I felt like maybe things were turning around.  I actually slept like 7 straight hours without having to run to the bathroom.  So I decide to go into work.  Big mistake.  Just in the first hour at work I had to run to the bathroom four times.  Plus I kept getting really light headed.  You don't think barely eating and then not keeping that food in your system longer then 15 minutes had anything to do with the light headedness?  Yea I can be an idiot.  So I left work early and my mom convinced me it was time to give in and go to the doctor.  I have a stomach virus, which he said is going around big time.  Lucky me (roll eyes) and he put me on two prescriptions.  So I called in sick to work at Kohl's tonight and already for Meadowbrook tomorrow.  And hopefully these pills will kick in soon cause I really can't stand being sick like this.  While I was at the store getting my prescription filled I picked up my trial pair of contacts my doctor had ordered for me.  I managed to wear them all of three hours before the headache got so bad it started making me nauseous and I was already dealing with that from the stomach virus.  So out came on the contacts and back with the glasses.  The headache so isn't worth wearing contacts.  So when I go back in I will tell the doctor we need to try something else.

On the positive side I managed to lose over 5 pounds this week, not eating and getting it back out almost as soon as it came in clearly works.  And because I now have insurance through Kohl's I only had to pay fifteen dollars for my doctors visit and I saved an additional five dollars on my prescription!  Thank you Kohl's!!

I feel like whether I am married or a widow my life is pretty boring.  Which I guess could and is a good thing?  Oh sure happy excitement is always good but bad excitement is bad so I will take boring over bad stuff any day of the week.  And basically right now I just feel like I am in a holding pattern.  I go to work or church or do things with my friends and that is it.  I feel like there is nothing meaningful happening in my life.  At least with David I had him to take care of and try and keep healthy and I think that gave me purpose.  But now, I don't know.  I don't even know what I am looking for anymore, but I hope when it finds me I know it.