Why

If you believe in God like I do there are so many times you just sit and think why.  Why did David go through all the stuff with the kidney failure just to die anyway?  Why did Ellie give him one of her kidneys and now he is gone and she only has one kidney?  Why are the one members of my church's two year old grandson having to deal with brain cancer?  What could that little boy have done to deserve that?  Why are people given the blessing of having children but they don't love them and turn around and abuse them?  Yet David and I would have loved and cherished any child we could have had and we were left childless.  The why's will drive you crazy if you let them.  I will always want to know why but I am coming to terms with the fact that I never will get that answer.  I just hope God does plan for me to find the happiness I so desperately want.  I hope!