I miss David

Some days the ache of missing him is stronger then others.  So many events in life, events that are happy but so sad for me just make me miss him more and more.  And with each day that passes I am getting farther and farther away from him.  I really need him tonight.  I need him to be here to put his arms around me and tell me that everything will be okay.  That even though we don't have children we can still have a great life together.  Only he isn't here and we won't have that life together.  I have to do it alone.  Yes I have friends and I love each and everyone of them so so much but at the end of the day I go to bed alone.  And please don't tell me I have God because last time I checked I couldn't make love to God.  I miss my husband!  I miss our life together even as pathetic as it was.  I just miss my Bubba. =(