Family Fun Night

Once a month my church has something called 'Family Fun Night' in the past several of my friends have invited me to come.  I always felt I would feel out of place because when I was first invited it was just me and David, no kids.  Then after David died I felt I would feel even more out of place because now no kids or a husband.  I finally went last night.  It was okay, it's always nice spending time with my friends.  But I did feel out of place.  I was glad I had agreed to go and help watch the kids while the Pastor did the discussion, which of course was on parenting.  And since the kids were outside riding their bikes I just had one baby down in the nursery plus two ten year olds who were "helping" me.  Will I go back?  Not sure.  Am I glad I at least tried it?  I guess so, just makes me miss David even more if that is possible.  Struggling today with emotions, miss him so much and I am just so friggen lonely. =(