I miss him

It is coming up on a year since I lost David and I miss him as much today as I did the day he died.  I keep reliving those last weeks in my mind wishing I could some how change it all and he would magically still be here with me.  Decided to take my contacts out last night in preparation for the tears to come because they have already been coming the last few nights.  I'm just really lonely.  No matter how busy I am with church and friends and family at the end of the day I still go to sleep alone.  I miss my husband, even the annoying things he used to do I miss and would take back in a heartbeat.