So I have had a headache for four days now. I know it has more to do with what was happening a year ago at this time then anything else. The strange dreams I was having last night probably the same thing. One of my dreams was that David and I were fighting and someone said we should do marriage counseling. If only that were reality. I would take us mad at each other and fighting every day to this. But it isn't my reality. My reality is that my husband has been dead for almost a year now. I have done better then I thought I would but knowing that doesn't make this any easier. It doesn't make the ache in my heart any smaller. It doesn't make me feel any less alone at night. But it is my reality and I am dealing with it the best I can. It includes happy days and really sad days and everything in between. This new reality sucks just an FYI. I hope it won't always. I sincerely hope there is another man out there who will love me for who I am, the way I look and everything else. I miss being half of a couple.
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