I am just physically tired.  I feel like I am doing to much but then I feel like I am not doing enough.  The whole theory that if I keep busy I won't miss David as much or whatever.  Problem with that is when I keep to busy it wears me down physically.  And when I am worn out physically it tends to make me more emotional then ever.  Yet when I am not busy I have to much time to think.  So basically damned if I do and damned if I don't kind of thing.

So I was supposed to have my orientation at Kohl's today, right?  Yea well guess there was a mix-up and a half hour into orientation the one manager asked if I minded coming back and doing it on Wednesday night.  I want to keep them happy so sure no problem.  Then one of the women from Kohl's called me tonight and asked if I minded pushing it back a whole week to next Wednesday.  Sure no problem.  Glad I have another job so I am not counting on this paycheck from Kohl's but it's good.  I just want to get started!