Sigh - again

I just seriously feel like my life is stuck in some horrible nightmare.  I can't seem to move forward, no matter how hard I try.  Maybe I am moving forward and just can't see it.  But right now I feel so stuck and am just so unhappy and so lonely and just really want my husband back.  Yea we were poor but we were poor together.  This being poor all by yourself just sucks.  I know that no one thing will make me happy or my life complete but getting a job would be an improvement.  Not worrying about how I am going to pay bills or buy even the very basics in groceries would be a nice change of pace for me.  I am just feeling so UGH tonight.  And of course when I am like this I miss David so much more then I already do every other minute of the day.  I just really want to be with him. =(