When one is faced with something like losing their spouse they should qualify for disability pay. Just trying to stay positive when your heart is broken is a full time job and an uphill battle. I always knew if David went first I would have a hard time dealing with it. I never knew it would rip me up so much though. It will be 8 months on Monday that he breathed for the last time and I can't stand that so much time has already gone by. I feel like the entire world should have stopped when my world did. Why does life have to go on? Why can't we just be allowed to stop and grieve without having to worry about the day to day crap? Today was the Canal Days parade and David loved the parade, he loved all of Canal Days. We would walk down several times a day just to walk around and people watch. And of course he had to get at least one elephant ear, but he usually talked me into buying him a second one before the festival was over. I have been down once to walk the whole thing and did go to the parade but it isn't the same. Nothing is the same without David. He was the one who lived life to the fullest and when he died he took all of that light and happiness with him.
So yesterday before the power outage I did want to post about a potential job I am trying for. One of my best friends, the place she works is hiring and she recommended me for the job. I went in for the informal interview on Monday and they finally posted it online so I could officially apply for it yesterday. The guy who does the hiring, the one I interviewed with on Monday, is on vacation this week so I won't hear anything about a formal interview until next week Monday at the earliest. It is only part time to start (25 hours a week) but if you work at least 20 hours a week you qualify for benefits which includes insurance! And in two years it will go to full time and it is the night shift which is what I want. So could everyone please send positive thoughts and/or prayers my way? Thanks!
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