Just so tired all the time!

For what feels like forever I have felt tired, all the time tired. Doesn't matter how much or how little sleep I get, I'm always tired. It was happening for years before David died. It's why he called me the Queen of Napping! I did worry that I had sleep apnea, but the original neurologist had me do a sleep study and that was ruled out. So he did do some good, I guess. I know now that it was my thyroid that has caused so many of my physical problems for years. It's most likely the reason why David and I were never able to get pregnant. I will have to come to terms with that at some point, that my worst fears that it was me who failed us are true. But I can't change the past. Now I just need to focus on feeling better. My new general practitioner doctor (whom I LOVE) has upped my thyroid medication and we will do blood work in the future to see if it needs adjusted further. Her goal is to have me physically able to walk a 5k on Thanksgiving Day! Right now I can't even walk around the grocery store without needing to rest and wishing my joints would stop hurting. But she is positive that with the right medication I will get better, and feel better. I am so thankful I was able to get in with her!

My ONE pain management doctor is also helping me a great deal. I have had to lumbar injections and feel even better after the second one I had two days ago. The pain is so minimal right now I have a hard time believing there were days I couldn't even turn over in bed without crying. I have only had one injection in my neck, and am pretty sure I will need a second one for it to show any real improvement. The injections aren't bad. But with the one in my neck I am sedated and that is a really weird feeling. It's like being there, but not really being there.

There was one half hour on Wednesday night that I didn't have a headache. It only lasted 30 minutes, but it gives me hope that the headaches will go back to, I don't know more normal? I know I will always have headaches, I just don't want them to last for days on end. That isn't that much to ask, is it?