I think coming to the end of the two year mark has been a very positive thing for me.  I m feeling stronger, more in tune with who I am and what I want in my life.  Do I still get sad and weepy?  Sure but I understand it and deal with it.  It is a normal part of the grieving process.  A part of me will always grieve losing David way to early in life.  But I see now that had I not lost him I would still be in that comfort zone I had created.  I am doing more and loving it.  I also see now not to let what others think or feel about me bother me like it used to.  If they don't like me for who I am that is there problem, not mine.  I am not going to allow others to make me feel like my thoughts and feelings don't matter.  I am going to stand up for myself.  This doesn't mean I am going to be a bitch (hey no laughing I only embrace my inner bitch when absolutely necessary!) but it also doesn't mean I am going to turn a blind eye when someone says or does something that hurts me and makes me feel like I don't matter.  I am definitely ready for the next chapter of my life!